Finding out how I actually feel in the wake of Trump's Election
Starting with how I feel right now, I feel afraid in a kind of heavy-dull limbs-in-concrete-jello way. I don’t want to feel this too much. Really at all. This election result. In one way, It doesn’t change much about how I’m going to be operating my life for the next 6-7 months. I’m finishing my dissertation (actually finishing it this time). That in itself means reduced interaction with the public sphere. Politics, current events, music. This election result, Trump/Pence elected and Republican control of House and Senate, feels like a wake-up call though. I could make it about people like me collectively, but I’m mainly going to speak in my own terms so I can stick to my experience right now. I really don’t know what to do. I keep finding myself running down paths trying to explain how we got here. There’s the sense that if I knew how we got here, I’d know how to feel. In the Shambhala teachings we talk about ‘the cocoon.’ The cocoon is made of the layers or hab